Hello! Sadly, this is the last chapter.
I'm going to miss posting and writing a lot!
But mostly? I'm going to miss you guys and how you always nag me to post the next chapters.
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Oh and for your information, I actually cried while writing this chapter..
Tears of Joy?
Tears of sadness?
You find out!
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And Yes! Because it's the last chapter I made this chapter so LONG!
I think this is the longest chapter I ever wrote :p
Enjoyy ;)
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I woke up and found 10 miss calls from Ali!
What was going on?
I decided to call him back
1ring
Connected.
Me: Aloo?
Ali: Halla..
His voice was different, his voice was filled with sadness.
Me: shfeek 9ayr shay?
Ali: Joury ana lazm ashoufch '6rori..
Ali: magdr agolch flphone
Me: 3li ga3d t5wfni:o wein?
Ali: I'm sorry bs lazm agolch
Ali: shraych biella elei fl mall? usually m7d feeh
Me: ok.. elsa3a km?
Ali: 4:30 koony f biella, I'll be waiting
Me: inshalla, I love youu
Ali: yalla I have to go bye
Me: bye..
And he hung up.
I was starting to get worried..
I got dressed, wore my 3baya, added makeup, wore my accessories, took my black channel bag, wore my heels and then I called the driver and went to the mall.
When I arrived biella I saw Ali sitting in a table in the corner. I went up to him and sat in the chair in front of him.
Me: Halla
Ali: ahleein..
Ali: Joury
Me: 3younha?
Ali: Joury and magdr
Me: matgdr shnw?
Ali: magdr..
Ali: atzwjch
Me: shnw? Laish? and shswait lk!!?
A tear dropped from my eyes.
He noticed it and wiped it with his fingers.
Ali: latbcheen, Joury and magdr atzwjch 3shan omy
Me: shd5l omk?
Ali: Mmm omy mb ra'6ya atzwjch
Me: shnw :'( laish? bs ehy mat3rfny w wla mra shaftni w g3dt m3ay 3shan trf'6ni, ana shfeeny? Nag9ni 2eeid wla reeil 3shan trf'6ny omk?
Ali: hdy ya Joury, omy mb ra'6ya la2na tbei tzwjnei 7g bnt 5alti Noora
Me: shnw ahdei? Ahdei w ent bttrkni w bttzwj '3airi ya 3li:'(
Me: Ali ana a7bk tfhm shnw ya3ni a7bk!!
He held my hand and took me to his car, because I was starting to cry and my voice was getting high, some people were starting to stare.
Ali: Joury ana mb b2eedy ana magdr aswi shay hathi omy I can't say anything.
Ali: please understand!
Me: Ali ana a7bk:'( a7bk lattrkni!
Ali: bs..
Me: ent w3dtni mat5leeny!!
Me: w3dtni:'(
Ali: Joury walla w rass omy w obooy enei amout feech bs mb thmbi '39bn 3ni, tkfeen etha t7beeny 3threeni
Me: Ali take me home :'(
Ali: bs Joury
Me: TAKE ME HOME!!
I was still crying, I couldn't handle seeing him right now.
I just wanted to be alone.
Ali: bra7tch
He said that w bkel broud:'(
He took me home and I ran instantly to my room. I locked the door and laid in my bed crying my eyes out.
I cried and cried and cried until I fell asleep.
1 month later
A month passed and I haven't heard from Ali ever since the breakup.
I didn't see him or hear his voice for a month now.
His voice..
which healed me when my heart was broken
He was my superman
He healed my heart
And now he shattered it into pieces.
I deleted him from bbm and blocked him in twitter and erased his number.
Sadly, he never texted me, called or even tried to talk to me in anyway :')
I was so depressed, I didn't go out for the whole week and I ate absolutely nothing!
I was locked in my room for a whole month.
The next day after the breakup I actually passed out and I remained in the hospital for 3 days. They said I had an "enhyar 39by".
My parents didn't dare to ask what was wrong with me because they know that would make me even worse.
They kept calming me down and trying to help me eat but I refused.
My brother didn't even care to ask about me.
He changed a lot but it didn't matter to me, not now.
All I thought about for the whole month was Ali.
He never left my mind.
Every time I thought of him I cried.
I closed my phone yesterday, because I wasn't bothered to answer any calls or bbm's.
Aisha tried to call me but I never answered.
I decided to open my phone and check if I got anything from Ali.
yes I still had hope he'll be back.
I opened it and found a text.
My heart skipped a beat.
It was from
Guess?
Keep guessing?
Yes..
Its
Ali
and this is what he texted me:
"Hi, I never thought I would hear myself say this words, be sitting here and be writing the last letter to the person I love the most.
This is one of the hardest things I ever had to do, to let go of you.
I miss you more as each day goes by, and lie to myself that one day our path will meet again and you will be mine.
At night I look up to the stars and wonder if you still think of me, if I am still in your heart like you are in mine.
Every time I close my eyes I see your face, your smile, and in the depth of my dreams we are once again in each other arms, but when I wake up I realize that it is all an illusion, and that I have to face that you are not mine no more and my world is left in the dark, but I want to tell you that I love you.
I don't want to loose you because I do need you, my world is revolved around yours, I learned to love through you, I learned what beauty was through your eyes, and now I am learning to cry because of you and how not to be selfish.
I would live my life in misery and sorrow just to see you happy and smiling.
I want to say goodbye but before I do, keep in mind that I will take you in my heart everywhere I go.
I'll be with you in my dreams were I am happy once again and at night I will look at the stars and tears will fall out of my eyes knowing that you are gone, because I did truly love you!
My love, my girl, my Angel.
Now I have to move on with my life without you and close the chapter to the love story, unlike the fairytale's my love story does not end in a happy ending, but even though I am the one who lost in this game of two I am happy it was with you.
I would fall and fall again and again to experience what I did with you, because you are what I am missing.
You are that other half of my heart the one who I was searching for my one and only, but now I will walk alone with a scar in my heart and a hole in my soul.
It's so hard to let go, to say goodbye, to turn my back on the person I love, but I have to!
I must, this can't go on no more, it will make me a stronger person, it will teach me a life lesson that I will never forget, I am sorry that we could not remain friends but you are asking me to hurt myself more than I am already.
I would like to know, do you still love me? and am I in your dreams as you are in mine?
Tears are falling out of my eyes as I write this because I know after this I won't write to you.
I will try to forget about you and promise myself that I will let you go and let you live your life, with this last words just know..
I still love you
I will always miss you
Goodbye my love, my girl, my Angel:*"
I cried a LOT!! after I read that text.
I lost hope on everything.
I just hated life after that moment.
7 years later
Now I know that nothing lasts forever and that I lost 2 guys that were once everything to me</3
Even though the first one was just a bad memory but he was once my everything and I couldn't get over that.
Ali was my everything too, he made me forget every bad memory I had, he made me the happiest girl in the whole wide world.
He made me feel that I was the only girl in this world, but he left me for another girl and all he said was "sorry" </3
I wanted to stay single for the rest of my life.
Every person that came up to my parents and asked for my hand in marriage, I rejected.
Not because I didn't like the guys who asked for my hand in marriage,
But because I couldn't stay with a guy that I don't love.
I couldn't love ever again, because my heart was with Ali.
I tried to move on but I couldn't
I dreamt of both Ali and 9ale7 every single day.
I wake up crying when I figure out that it was only a dream..
I felt like 9ale7 was alive, but just in my heart and head.
I loved them so much and I always will!
I miss them so much.
I wish I was the one who died not 9ale7
And Ali..
I still couldn't believe that he left me just because his mother said so.. He could have stood up for our love and defended it, I know he could have but he didn't.
Without them my life became a misery!
I didn't go out like I used to and all I do all day is stay in my room.
If any of my family members asked what was wrong with me I would use the "I'm sick" excuse or "I have a headache" etc.
Jassim got married and left to live in Dubai with his wife.
They have a kid now and they named her "Tamader" <3
My parent's now live in Qatar because they couldn't stay in Dubai after Jassim have moved out.
So my father got his old job and my parent's are satisfied el7mdella.
Hanouf fell in love with Jarra7
Yes he's back in Qatar now and actually he came back 4 years ago.
We didn't really catch up a lot..
But I hooked Hanouf up with him, because I knew Jarra7 wouldn't hurt a fly!
Yes they're married now actually and they have a 1 year old son.
He's so adorable and they named him "Rashid"
I wish them all the best ;)
& Aisha..
Well Aisha is married now.
She's the happiest girl alive and I envy her for that.
She has the most lovable husband in the whole world.
He love's her so much and he can't go a day without talking to her.
No, she doesn't have any kids because unfortunately she couldn't have any, but her husband was okay with that because he loved her so much, he couldn't leave her for someone else or get mad at her just because she wasn't able to have kids.
Oh and were still best friend me, her and Hanouf.
I wish her all the best too<3
& Nada
Nada was already married.
She has 3 kids now.
2 were girls and 1 was a boy, he was the eldest!
They're names were "Najat, Hanin & Abdulla"
Shaikha & Reem adorably married twins!
We haven't hanged out with them since years.
Salwa is still single, I don't understand why she's not married still?
She's drop dead gorgeous that everyone wish's to have.
Amna is married to 3umar and they love each other so much! But they just got married a year ago.
Amna is now pregnant with a baby girl.
Nasser got married to an American blondy 2 years ago.
He moved to America a month after their marriage.
If you're wondering what happened to Ali?
Well..
He's married now to his cousin Noora.
He has one daughter and he named her "Joury" after me.
How do I know?
Well I once saw little Joury wondering alone f aspire park crying, she looked lost.
I asked her what her name was and I was surprised that she had the same name that I did.
And what surprised me even more was that she was screaming and crying out loud "abi baba Ali"
I asked her what her fathers name is and she told me
"Ali alflani"
and a tear escaped my eyes.
I helped her find him, he didn't recognize me but I recognized him!
The last thing he said to me was
Ali: mshkoura matg9reen ench lgeeiti bnty
Me: umm el3fo
Me: sorry bs 3rftni?
Ali: la walla ma3rftch mn m3ay?
Me: ana Joury
Ali: Joury?
Me: ee..
Ali: 7y allah Joury..
Ali: umm.. sh5barch.. shloonch? shmswya?
he looked nervous
Me: ana b5air walla w ent?
Ali: ana b5air dam chftch
Me: mm.. I have to go now, bye!
Ali: wait Joury!
But I was already gone.. I didn't dare to turn around.
He was so concerned about his daughter, he looked like he adored her a lot..
I was happy for him :')
The reason he didn't recognize me was because I have really changed.
I wear glasses and I am mt7jba now. I don't add makeup anymore not even k7l and mlam7i wayed t'3yrt. I wasn't the old Joury anymore. I've grown up!
I became a woman.
Oh and if you want to know more about me..
Well my dad eventually made me marry a guy called "a7med alflani".
He's a rich guy.
He's tall, chubby and white. He's cute but I didn't feel anything towards him because I was forced to marry him and my heart was with Ali.
Yes I have 2 kids now!
They're twins actually and both of them were boy's.
I named them "9ale7 & Ali".
They reminded me of them, and I adored them.
w la zlt qbl elnoum ardd..
Weinah?
Weinah elei la glt ya flaan!
Gal 3younah?
Weinah elei la glt shlounk?
Gal enty adra
Weinah elei la glt abeeek
Gal ana 3ndk!
Weinah elei la glt btjei?
Gal l3younk arou7
Weinah elei la glt wsh tswei?
Gaal afkr feek..
Weinah elei la glt lh wsh tshouf?
Gal 9ourtk!
Weinah elei la glt ajeeek?
Gal mo knk fe galbi?
Weeeinah elei la glt wdei amout!!
Gal..
Ana wyak :")
Weinah?
THE END!
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Yess! I did a mix ending, ya3ni Happy w sad
But it was mostly a sad ending for Joury
I couldn't do a happy ever after for her because that just happens in fairytale's ..
Also because my story is titled "HeartBroken" I don't think a happy ending will suite it.
I was going to do it entirely a sad ending bs I made it mix so the happy ending voters mayz3loon:*
Walla a7bkm klkm w mayhoon 3lay z3lkm:$
An advice.. (only for the girls!)
Don't get too attached to a person that will eventually let you down..
I'm not saying don't love but don't get attached because sadly in the end you will be surprised and devastated.
Boys think its fun w rjoola to play with girls feelings and emotions.
(I'm not accusing ALL boys:p)
Girls in the other side love with all their hearts but in the end get heart broken.
7ub bdoon zwaj maho 7ub!
I see girls that are 11,12 even younger that are in love with guys who don't even care about them and then they cry! they cry because they loose their family's trust and their reputation.
If you know that this is all a trap, why fall in the trap?
Your still young ya5ei live your life.
You know what guys think now a days?
They think that they can't marry the ones they once talked to, because their society said so. You can't marry a girl you used to talk to! Because they think that the girl who went behind her family's back and talked to the boy, can always go behind her husbands back and cheat.
As though the girl he will marry in the future is pure..
Also some guy's don't want 1 girl, they can't get enough! They want 2,3,4, even 10.
You can't constantly eat 1 sandwich for the rest of your life can you?
Of course not because you'll get bored of the same routine!
Raa7 zmn qays w laila! Ja zmn el5ayn w elhabla :p..
(everybody read this!) >
I'm actually against having boyfriends or doing the stuff I mentioned in my story with boys, like going out with them or sending them your pics, kissing them even if it's in the cheeks! or hugging them..
a9lan I never saw anything like what I mentioned above happen in Qatar!
This story DOES NOT represent Qatar in anyway!
It's just a fictional story that I wrote because I enjoy writing a lot!
I don't want anyone to think that just because I wrote a love story, that I agree with girls who talk to boys or do that kind of things I mentioned.. Well I don't!
Anyways I hope you enjoyed my story!
& Remember that nothing lasts forever because forever is a lie ;) so don't get too attached to a person.
Live life like there's no tomorrow because you only live once!
I'm really going to miss you guys<3!!
It's been a long interesting Journey writing this story..
Oh and I'm still thinking about starting a new blog!
I'll think about it, I might do one after the summer holiday and I said "might" :*
But before I leave I would like to share this poem I found. I found it really inspirational:
"Life is crazy,
and totally unpredictable..
It's going to push you over,
kick you while you're down
and hit you when you try to get back up.
Not everything can beat you.
Things are going to change you,
But you get to choose which ones you let change you.
Listen to your heart,
Follow your dreams,
And let no one tell you what you're capable of.
Push the limits,
Bend the rules,
And enjoy every minute of it.
Laugh at everything,
Live for as long as you can.
Love all,
But trust none.
Believe in yourself,
And never lose faith in others
Settle for nothing but only the best,
And give 110% in everything you do.
Take risks,
Live on the edge,
Yet stay safe,
And cherish every moment of it.
Life is a gift,
Appreciate all the rewards,
And jump on every opportunity.
Not everyone's going to love you
But who needs them anyways.
Challenge everything,
And fight for what you believe.
Back down to nothing,
But give in to the little things in life,
After all, that is what makes you.
Forget the unnecessary,
But remember everything,
Bring it with you everywhere you go.
Learn something new,
And appreciate criticism.
Hate nothing,
But dislike what you want.
Never forget where you come from,
And always remember where you are going.
Live life to its fullest,
And have a reason for everything,
Even if it's totally insane.
Find your purpose in life,
and Live it!"
If you have any questions please feel free to ask me anything in ask.fm and if you want to speak your mind please do also in my ask.fm I won't mind :)
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Follow me on instagram too if you want!
Thankyou and Goodbye sweet readers ;*
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A7bbkm !
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-HeartBroken
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